Positive And Negative

Between Sertraline, CBD Gummie Bears and the power of meditation, I feel that I have greatly improved my health and well-being, things in me have taken a shift in the right direction, and my coping skills have almost gone into autopilot.

Do I feel like I am becoming who I used to be?  The answer to that is both positive and negative because I look at it from the perspective of, do I want to be like I used to be, or do I want to change? 

Being indecisive about my mental well-being is my first hurdle; I am still very much struggling with that, and as good as Sertraline is, it also puts a barrier in place to stop me from progressing to far to fast. I seem to be on the fence about most things and don’t care either way. What I have noticed is my distance and tolerance with those who are not real friends. I look at it as if you don't want me; I don't want you.  So, as much as that is a negative stance, it is also a positive one in moving away from anything that could be toxic, not wasting undue energy and stress on a lost cause.