Meal Out

Tonight is a big step for me as I am attending a birthday meal out.  For me social gatherings have been the hardest things to attend since I started to suffering with anxiety, it is something that have never got easier or gone away, even if I know the people I’m going out with, it is other people around me, espicaial those that don’t  understand and just see me as wanting to be the one that keeps himself to himself.

Even though I was looking forward to a nice meal out with my husband I still had reservations, especially since neither of us had been to this restaurant before. 

I do feel that half the battle with social gatherings is knowing my surroundings, knowing the exits, the place that’s a little quieter to sit and having enough space to make my own.

As we made our way there I did my exercises to remove intrusive thoughts and that took a degree of anxiety out of the situation but I still felt myself shaking and so I took a CBD gummie, ten minutes later, just as we had arrived it had kicked in and I had gone from someone anxious and shaky to a totally different person.

The night was busy, but I felt calm and several of our group knew how that I was suffering with anxiety and looked out for, they knew the signs and knew what to do to calm me down, I felt at ease knowing that I couldn’t put myself in any danger and cause myself any harm.